For the Love of Textiles

Yesterday was my birthday. I have turned 55. It was strange to wake up alone after an evening full of tears before the morning. No one next to me to give me a kiss and a present, as I was used over the last 30 years. First time... there have been many "First Times" over the last months.  First time going to a party alone..and first time coming home alone after that party... First time going on holiday alone..and first time coming home alone... First time cooking a meal for me alone..and eating it alone....  (to tell you the truth..I hate cooking at the moment..and I used to love it..) First time sleeping alone in our double bed... First time telling people that he had passed away...(that still happens..) First time going to the market and realizing that you don't need that amount of oranges anymore.. And there are more...many more First Times... Living alone after living together for so long will take a lot of time to get used to it.....

Just found out that I have my blog now for 1 year. I am not a very regular writer I did find out, but I like to write every now and than when I have a reason to it. Not sure yet what I will write now..... but let's start with something nice and positive. Almost 2 weeks ago on a Friday I mentioned to Bram that I had the idea of going to Amsterdam with him. He hadn't been there for almost 2 years due to his bad walking condition. So we went. I parked the car right in the centre next to a canal and we had a cake together at Pompadour where we used to go in the past when we mostly went to Amsterdam once in a month to look at Art and some shopping. It was a beautiful and sunny Spring day and than Amsterdam is at his most beautiful I think when all the trees are turning green with tiny leaves. It was wonderful to be together in Amsterdam. Of course we only could do a little walk together but it was a great and emotional day for the both of us. Some tears came of course, but only te...