For the Love of Textiles

Today, I have again experienced what grief can do tot the human soul...to my soul.. I don't know why, but today was a very hard one for me. It did start just after waking up.. tears, while having a shower. Tears when I met friends in town who invited me for coffee on a sunny terrace..tears again there.. Almost tears when I picked up my bread at the bakery and 3 of my best friends -who where having coffee there- invited me to have a drink with them too.. I could feel they where a bit worried about me. Later one of them came to my home to bring some home grown veg and flowers..and I couldn't stop crying.. A neighbor came to invite me for a dinner at their place. I made the arrangement for the coming Friday, and when she was gone..tears again.. And while writing this..I am crying.. At a day like this I notice by myself that I have a different eyesight. I feel nervous and insecure with myself. A kind of secluded feeling.  People notice that. I try to be as normal as ev

This morning I finished my BramAndJan Ring at the course at Kunstgoud . Made from our 2 rings, and with an imprint from his thumb. Forever... No more words...

Imagine... You enter a room filled with 220 Spinners all from the Netherlands.. You were not expecting that amount of women..and a few men... You were not expecting this great variety in spinning-wheels... It was me who entered that room.. and I was totally  f labbergasted..not expecting that amount... All different people (very interesting to see)..but all passionate about spinning! For the first few hours I had the feeling that I had entered a Spinning-Storm.. and there was no place to hide..and I loved it.. I met up with my Knitting-friends from Ravelry..Tien, Marijke, Janneke, Rachel,Meta, Feikje and many more..but I could hardly speak, because all was so overwhelming to me.. Me..a Novice Spinner, who got to see the most amazing spinning-wheels, and yarns spun so beautiful.. I took some pictures just after lunch, when hardly anyone was in the room.. And ofcourse I had taken my Mr.Bliss with me, who loved to stand next to the Louet fro

At exact 11.30 hrs. this morning I posted a picture on Tumblr.. and 1 minute later I linked it to Facebook.. It was very important for me to do this. I took this picture yesterday, to be used today.. 11.30 hrs.. the moment his soul did fly away...26 weeks ago. This is the first half year for me without him. I have managed so far... When you would have told me last year I wouldn't have believed that. That it would be possible to go back into life. I always thought that if that would happen to me I couldn't manage it. That I wouldn't be able to laugh anymore.  The opposite is true in a way.  I remember that I even laughed in the afternoon when he had passed away. I can go back to that Tuesday, and I see everything very clear. It is totally not a vague memory.  I have seen and felt everything with a clear mind. Very aware of the moment. And I did see him go. Leaving Earth. I am back at work.. I volunteer at the theater rou