For the Love of Textiles

At exact 11.30 hrs. this morning I posted a picture on Tumblr.. and 1 minute later I linked it to Facebook.. It was very important for me to do this. I took this picture yesterday, to be used today.. 11.30 hrs.. the moment his soul did fly away...26 weeks ago. This is the first half year for me without him. I have managed so far... When you would have told me last year I wouldn't have believed that. That it would be possible to go back into life. I always thought that if that would happen to me I couldn't manage it. That I wouldn't be able to laugh anymore.  The opposite is true in a way.  I remember that I even laughed in the afternoon when he had passed away. I can go back to that Tuesday, and I see everything very clear. It is totally not a vague memory.  I have seen and felt everything with a clear mind. Very aware of the moment. And I did see him go. Leaving Earth. I am back at work.. I volunteer at the thea...

What to write on my blog I ever ask myself... Will I ever write as I did before about my life? 16 weeks ago there was the funeral. It will always be a sad and beautiful memory. To share this with my friends...my chosen family was very special to me... Many things have happened over the last months since Bram passed away, but I couldn't see a reason to write about them.  Neither was it an option for me to write about my sadness, mourning and grieve. Yes, I do miss him...I miss him every second..no doubt about that... It would be strange not to feel this after more than 30 years with this beautiful and special man.. He turns up everyday in my mind.. Mourning is a strange and unknown part of my life.. One moment you feel good...than...a noise..a smell..a look...tears and more tears. Unexpected...it can hit me any moment.. No need to give me advice...I have got to know myself quite well over the last years. I know what to do when I feel lost and sad..becau...